Life

So, once again I havent written in awhile.  This blog is supposed to be of my musings, but obviously my muse has gone on vacation, or maybe she hiding from me because school has started yet again.

Dont get me wrong, I love learning and meeting people etc, but I hate the stress.  I mean I know that life is going to be full of plenty of opportutunites to stress out, but I feel that with school it is one continuous round and that there is bascially nothing you can do about it. *sigh* wow I am really going off today....

Okay we are going to leave that subject now. I've moved to one of the University singles wards, not becasue I wanna get married, but jsut cuz I wanna meet more people.  Its hard to get to know people when the only times you see them is inbetween classes once a week (if that). So its been fun and hard to be out going at times, but I think I have been succeeding.

Oh yeah! I totally finished my quilt and it looks awesome! :) I am so proud of myself.  But still, I wanna thank my mom for helping me in every aspect of it, Emily for helping pick the colors out, and my aunt for giving me great tips! :D 

(oh yeah, I had an amazing "tea" party with my friends the other day...)

New Year?

Wow! I can't believe that I havent posted at all this new year!  Its crazy!  Basically though, I havent been doing much.  Just hanging out with my friends and trying to finish my quilt that has been taking FOREVER! :) But when it is done, which it almost is, it is going to be awesome!

(Me and Amy "hideing out")

(Just working on tieing the quilt)

"Sew" basically thats pretty much my life up until now.  School starts on Tuesday...oh joy....actually though I am happy that I will have a schedule in my life, but I dont like the stress.

OOOO! Yesterday I got to sing in the choir for Elder Bednar who came and had an AWESOME 'Q and A' fireside with the YSA of the East Valley.  Needless to say, I am always goin to cherish and remember that night and what I learned. :)

Boys

So here is a poem I've been trying forever to find.  Basically its awesome so just read on:

A heart is not a plaything, a heart is not a toy,

But if you want it broken, just give it to a boy.

Boys, they like to play with things to see what makes them run,

But when it comes to kissing, they do it just for fun.

Boys never give their hearts away; they play us girls for fools,

They wait until we give our hearts and then they play it cool.

You'll wonder where he is at night; you'll wonder if he's true.

One moment you'll be happy; one moment you'll be blue.

If you get a chance to see him, your heart begins to dance.

Your life revolves around him-there's nothing like romance.

And then it starts to happen: you worry day and night.

You see, my friend, you're losing him, it never turns out right.

Boys are great, though immature; the price you pay is high.

he may seem sweet and gorgeous, but remember, he's a guy.

Don't fall in love with just a boy; that takes a lot of nerve.

You see, my friend, you need a man to get what you deserve.

So when you think that you're in love, be careful if you can,

Before you give your heart away, make sure that he's a man.

-author unknown

Christmas

okay, okay, so its been like forever since I last posted but alot has been going on.  Andrew, Amanda and Lily have been here and have been so much fun (though 'specially Lily(sorry Amandrew!))

I have had a wonderful Christmas, though we had quiet a scare with our dog Abby.  Though the jury is still out, she has contracted at what seems like a tumor that is likey going to kill her soon.  Its kinda hard to talk about cuz its not like she is my baby or anything, its just that we've had her forever, and its going to be hard to let her go.

So my christmas has been great.  I gave and got much, and have been able to see lots of friends and family.  What more could I ask for?

Studying? What is this "studying" you speak of?

okay, so bascially...I am sick and tired of studying! I just wanna go on with my vacation and read and play with my friends that hae all just gotten back! Gosh! So, I've been rereading this awesome series so I could read the new one, but I told myself that I can't read it until I'm done with my next three finals....but the problem is, its ALL my mind wants to do! So, I thought to myself, 'you wanna read eh? Lets read a different book I have that wont hook me like this other one will.' Well, it turns out my brain isnt interested in that story.
So, now I am back to ground one, venting. Gosh, all I want to do is read! Is that too hard to ask for? I guess so. Poo....well, i guess I will just go get this stupid stuff done. *sigh*

Denial

So I really think that my mind is in a state of denial, because it wont let me fully realize that my first final is..ahem...TOMORROW MORNING!!!!! uhggg. gosh.  I mean I have two finals tomorrow, and though I have good grades in both of the classes, part of me is kinda freaking out, and another part is keeping from even thinking about them.

So here I am, partially studing for the end of my life.  *sigh* I really am starting to miss the simple life of high school....hahahaha!  Honestly, you never know how bad it can get until you move on to something else! :P

Stress

so its not even the week of finals and I'm already stressed.  Honestly, its like my mind is in such a whirlwind, i dont know where to start anything.  Gosh, I just wanna do good and get everything done that I need to. *sigh* I guess this post is really just a ramble on how Im feeling.  Its just hard.  Classes are hard, my groups are difficult and finals...well, anyone who is going to go/has gone through it knows how to finish that sentence. Oh well, I guess things just happen for our understanding and development.  Just think happy thoughts. ;)